Its been a while hasn't it. A lot has changed too, or I think so. I love it, I love Jesus, and how much He has changed me and my life.
Here's some of the things that God has changed recently...
I've removed all my facial and body piercings- that's right, now I only have my ear piercings. I felt convicted to remove them because I was so dependent upon my pericings in the last. I needed them to make me feel secure, and confident. But that's not the case anymore. They had become an eyesore, and every time I looked in the mirror, they were extremely noticeable- in a negative way. I'm no longer dependent on them, and no longer wanted them to be a part of me. Having them created a conflict, it was either I sacrifice my faith for my piercings, or my piercings for my faith. So I took them out. I'm much happier now, and without them. I feel more whole and complete as a person and Christian without my piercings than I did with them.
I've made the decision to be celibate until I get married (if I do)- Having marred that part of myself years before becoming a Christian, and knowing how significant purity and wholeness are, it was a a huge pitfall, and snare that I overcame. My mind used to run itself in helplessly anxious circles. Thinking of the possibility of, "What if I meet and fall in love with an amazing Christian guy, and then when I tell him that I'm no longer a virgin, it ruins everything between us..." Once again the conviction of my past mistakes compelled me to spur on this change. I rest in this decision of mine, I know its one that Jesus wants for me.
I renounced my entire secular past- Jesus had put it firmly in my heart that the only way I could find rest in him, and continue to grow in my faith was by doing this. When the children's pastor mentioned the possibility of renouncing my past, it instantly sparked something within me. About a week before I met with her again to renounce my past, Jesus gave me the word "Genesis". I renounced everything. Things as seemingly unimportant as my past of body modification, to things that had eaten me alive and tore at me since they had occurred (I'm not mentioning them here though). It was actually in renouncing my secular life that birthed the conviction of remain celibate, and to remove my piercings.
My life has undergone a huge genesis since all this has happened to me. My life, and own self is in a very dramatic refining process. I thank God for all the changes he's making in me and my life, and all the changes and construction yet to come. I'm growing up in faith, and love it, and love Jesus for choosing me to experience this all.
"To live in the Holy Spirit is to change." - Celebration of Discipline.